I wanted to clear something up.
You all know that Stephen Colbert guy right?
He's a CHARACTER.
A pseudonym, like Christuus Gnosis.
I have a few pseudonyms. They each have different characters.
In my readings about many of my personal favorite authors, musicians, and visual artists I read a lot of crap.
Especially
if they had unpopular ideas, or they actually had OPINIONS about
politics, spirituality, humanity, whatever else the lower classes
shouldn't really bother themselves with.
Ad hominem and character assassination.
If you don't like what someone says, start looking for rocks and dirt to bury them with.
If you write it down in all those sneaky little administrative places, you might make people even believe it.
In
the end, what other people say about you is where people will form
their opinions, and the system is designed to entrench this.
So I'm going to clearly state something here, not because you give a shit. For the future.
I've never been crazy.
Honestly.
Never was schizophrenic, never was a junkie.
Did
a few drugs like most normal humans and thought some interesting
thoughts, lived through a lot of stress, but never did any serious evil
drug habit. Never was paranoid, schizophrenic, delusional. Ever.
Never
been diagnosed as such, and have been assessed by a minimum of 3
psychiatrists and given a clean bill of mental health. My memory and
recall of events is clear and I have absolutely zero cognitive
dysfunctions.
I've never met anyone at any time, even when I was
EXTREMELY high, whom I actually thought was more intelligent or sane
than myself during our interaction. Zero. Nada. Not a one. I don't care
how straight edge of fanatically moral they were, they weren't more sane
than I.
All reality is subjective, and my subjective experience
and its interpretations take priority over representations being
presented to me by another. You can quote me on that.
People who
read about my life in the future will, I suspect, be presented with a
number of "reports" filed by various "health care service providers" of
this or that aspect of my life. They might even say I was part of this
or that program and that I signed something for info or to prove
enrollment.
Sorry. All bullshit. Honestly.
I know I
sometimes LOOK pretty crazy, I got that nick nolte on a bender einstein
on glue look sometimes, but other than being tired or a bit stoned, or
maybe malnourished, the eyes are not actually indicative of the mental
processes behind them.
That's my story, and I'm definitely sticking to it folks.
Please
also note that this would apply to people asserting that I had been
part of some form of recovery, or other behavioral modification bullshit
reprogramming system.
Never. Honestly.
At my worst in my
life I consumed 12 beers 5 days a week for about 4 years, my grandfather
drank twice that till he croaked. I generally drink about 3-7 beers at a
time about 15-20 days of the month. Lately its about 20 beers in the
first 3 days of the month and less than 10 thereafter.
In Canada that is actually below normal consumption.
In most civilized countries that is a low consumption.
Never
been to any rehab, AA, 12 step, or church sponsored outreach program.
Never took part in or agreed to or participated in any "intervention". I
still drink, smoke, toke, whatever. I've never stopped. Ever. I do not
believe in involuntary behavioral modification, religiously motivated or
otherwise. I think it should be illegal to coerce people into living
according to clearly assigned societal norms. Regardless of your
reasoning or possible "good intentions".
Free will and freedom of personal experiences. Screw your self limiting ideology. I'll mitigate myself as I see fit.
Zero.
Other than hanging with some baptists once a month to get coffee and do
laundry. No crosses or sermons so I don't think that counts. Just
washing machines and muffins. No prayer before loading.
You might
get a picture of me lighting incense at a buddhist temple altar. Never
praying in a pew. Not since like, 11 years old or something. Atheism
took hold at 13 for this cat.
I guarantee I will never convert to
christianity. Ever. If anyone tries to sell you that shit about me
you'll know for sure they've got some weird agenda going down. I dig
jesus but I don't pray for him to hold my hand at night. I think jesus
is cooler than the pope is. I honestly think the pope is a bit of a
fucker, all of them, and they actually fuck up my buddy J.C.'s good
reputation with a lot of their shit. Most people's interpretations of
J.C. and his crew are pretty fucked up. Read some of mine. I have a few more coming soon.
Sorry,
had to clear that up folks. People don't accept that doctors and
"health care providers" can be bribed like other humans into writing
shit about someone. Just like lawyers and judges.
So enjoy the frothy rantings and ravings,
it's got far more truthiness than is good for anybody.
And when "documents" that "prove" my madness appear after I'm dead,
perhaps someone will still think
to get it straight from the bastard's mouth himself.
And speaking of my reputation for being a filthy bastard.
There will be pictures of me with Bait. Lots of them.
I've had them send at least 5 obvious ones in the last 3 years.
There's probably more.
Done lots of talking with them.
Even flirting.
That's it. I usually tell them off in a pretty mean way after I spend about a month figuring out their trip.
There's always some fucked up trip involved.
They might have a picture of me sniffing it,
but I haven't eaten any of their Bait up to this point.
I would also add
there are probably a couple dozen young women in my neighborhood who
would consider me a safe person to run to for assistance late at night.
That would be the facts.
