Someone asked what BT meant in "the small great book of atheist spirituality"
BT stands for Body Text, meaning I have a lot more to say there.
So why haven't I finished these things?
Basically, I'm homeless in vancouver right now and I am playing my guitar to feed me and my dog.
I have these books pretty much finished in my head, but why would I complete them?
I'll only get ripped off.
Like Neitsche, van gogh, orwell, coleridge, jonathan swift, P.K. Dyck, the list is HUGE.
I'll be broke my whole life, and after I'm dead some already rich fucker will make a wad of cash.
that's the way it's worked for centuries, and in Canada it's a constant for artists, writers and other creatives.
My first film I wrote was stolen by Cineworks Independent Film Society in Vancouver.
They got funding from Canada Council, Telefilm, and BBC channel 4!!!
Took my script off the mac I had typed it on at Cineworks while I was a member,
and got a good wad of money to make the production.
Money that I could have used to make my film and get my film career started
I wrote it in 1988, and in 1994 I was watching my stolen film on Bravo Showcase.
The guy who stole it was Director of the society at the time,
and Mina Shum, darling of the Canadian film scene
was sitting right there beside him, smirking, when he talked to me about my film.
My spidey sense went off when he seemed to know more about my film than I had ever told him. They get public money every year from a number of government agencies,
and I would bet I'm not the only filmmaker Cineworks ripped a film off of.
That's why there are no real Canadian films. The creatives just get ripped off by the money people so they give up.
That and the fact that "Canadian" TV series that are made in canada today are all produced by Americans in Canada. Everyone at the top is an American, but because the crew is Canadian, they can call it Canadian and suck up the money from government troughs. Read more about cointelpro and you'll see the past history of film productions being used to subvert any grassroots filmmaking in countries around the world where the US has interests. That's why every "Canadian" drama production today is full of "RAH RAH USA, YES SIR!!!" military and cop bullshit.
Fuck it.
When I start making a decent living in this world, I'll commit the rest of my books to writing and start painting again.
Till then, fill in the blanks yourself.
I need a house and car and laptop like everyone else.
Blogging at the library is bullshit.
The Order of the MEEK was designed so that reading the table of contents would lead someone in the direction of spiritual growth. What's currently there is basically the TOC, but there is definately text for each section. I won't write it all down until I'm certain I'll make something off it myself.
excuse me for being bitter, but that's what happens when a group of people targets and tries to kill you in your own house for being born with nonstandard anatomy.
They don't like people like that here.
The police would rather shoot you for being a mutant or take you to a mental health institution for "assessment" rather than take you seriously.
Sort of like those crazy whores gone "missing" at the pig farm, who cares eh?
So you lose your house and belongings to the fuckers who try to do you in.
Your only choice is to leave all your stuff, or risk going to jail for killing the fuckers who try to beat you. If I had enough money to keep my dog safe and get some gear, I'd take care of it myself.
All my paintings, years of work - gone.
5000 albums of music collected over the years - gone
Nowhere to live and drained of all my savings from the experience
As if I saved much living hand to mouth in Canada the last 40 years
underprivileged, underclass, underpaid, with no credit and no opportunity worth having
Working at Stargate didn't pay enough to live in vancouver, never mind save for emergencies or move to get away from evil assholes.
All that and I can't get to the other side of town for medical attention that I need immediately.
There's only one clinic that takes vagrants with problems like mine.
Read John Wyndham's "The Chrysalids", it's a real metaphor for modern life and human rights in Canada, and it's set in Canada too. Scream loudly in your mind, perhaps you'll be heard.
Or burned, or sent to the twisted gnarled black wood to die anonymously.
While you're at it, read Aldous Huxley's "Brave New World" or "Ape and Essence" if you haven't already read them. It's worth wading through the constant puns for the meat of what he's saying there.
What a shithole Canada is becoming.
There are more people living out of shopping carts than there ever was since the Great Depression.
Legislated poverty is the norm, and minimum wage isn't enough for a single room in any canadian city. Never mind a suite.
Soon they'll make it illegal to be homeless, just like victorian england, just lock them up for life if they don't have a home.
It's been 5 days since I had a shower, so excuse me if I sound bitchy.
